The struggle is real.
I am sure we all have had those moments in our creative worlds where our mojo just comes to a halt, where you hit a brick wall and no matter how hard you try, there is no tearing it down. There are so many causes of these creative blocks, whether it's family obligations, the weather, work, or just being in that slump where the ideas and inspiration are just not within reach. I have come across that issue, a brick wall, to stare endlessly at a project and think, "What now?"
I recently had the pleasure of attending an art retreat in Minneapolis. Thinking this would illuminate some brilliant ideas buried deep down in my brain, I had the thought that I was going to go way out of my comfort zone. I was going to use products I normally don’t use, try techniques I wouldn't ever think of trying, colour palettes that I tend to run from, all because I have the resources and the experts there to guide and direct me if I happen to go astray.
So I took Andrea Demeng’s altered book class called “Literary Illusions". I had seen her work so I had a general idea of what I wanted to do, until we got in the class. Then it was all downhill from there. She is an amazing artist and has such a unique style. Maybe my expectations where too high, but let's just say it was not what I expected. And Andrea, she could see my frustration as the day progressed. Kudos to her for her ability to keep me encouraged and engaged and helped me throughout the day. I did come home with an unfinished project with all intentions to get right to it and get it done.
The unfinished project was an altered book with a frame and even a window with a creative truffle tin featuring a face from Visage. With that and an extra eyeball from a fellow attendee, I thought to myself, "Wow! I am going way out of the box on this one."
Some days, I would look at it and say, “Yep, I do kinda like it. Maybe I will finish it today." And then 10 minutes later, "Nope." I am still looking at it with a blank stare thinking that this might be one that ends up in the trash. We all have those trash bins that welcome, with open arms, those “OMG! I don’t dare show a single soul!” or “WTH was I thinking?!” moments of insanity.
As a result, I now have this celestial looking creature captured in the black abyss of ugly. It sits on my desk, staring at me , taunting me to either put it out of its misery or get over myself and just get going on it. Hopefully, I can accomplish the latter but as we all have struggles from time to time, sometimes it is best to just step away and save it for another day. So for now, this will be set aside to stare at me a little bit longer.
The struggle is real.